Monday, October 19, 2015

Forked Roads

Yogi Berra passed yesterday. He famously stated 'when you come to a fork in the road, take it.

A number of philosophers have used the forked road metaphor to explore the human decision making process. For John Dewey it served as a metaphor that evoked the act of thinking itself:

A man traveling in an unfamiliar region comes to a branching of the roads. Having no sure knowledge to fall back upon, he is brought to a standstill of hesitation and suspense. Which road is right? And how shall perplexity be resolved? There are but two alternatives: he must either blindly and arbitrarily take his course, trusting to luck for the outcome, or he must discover grounds for the conclusion that a given road is right. 
Thinking begins in what may fairly enough be called a forked-road situation, a situation which is ambiguous, which presents a dilemma, which proposes alternatives. As long as our activity glides smoothly along from one thing to another, or as long as we permit our imagination to entertain fancies at pleasure, there is no call for reflection. Difficulty or obstruction in the way of reaching a belief brings us, however, to a pause. 
Reflective thinking is always more or less troublesome because it involves overcoming the inertia that inclines one to accept suggestions at their face value; it involves willingness to endure a condition of mental unrest and disturbance.Reflective thinking, in short, means judgment suspended during further inquiry; and suspense is likely to be somewhat painful. As we shall see later, the most important factor in the training of good mental habits consists in acquiring the attitude of suspended conclusion, ....... To maintain the state of doubt and to carry on systematic and protracted inquiry—these are the essentials of thinking.
Dewey, John (2012-12-12). The Essential John Dewey Collection. Kindle Edition.

I see a lot of overlap here with the 2nd inner chapter of the Zhuangzi which argues argues against a fixed heart-mind (and for suspended conclusions). It suggests:
‘Allowing both alternatives to proceed’ &
‘remaining at rest at the center of the spontaneous potter’s wheel’ or at the 'pivot of the way'  - & 
‘Thus the Sage sees by the glimmer of chaos and doubt. He does not affirm of anything: “this is it”; his affirmation is lodged in ordinary practice. This is to view things in the light.
I think it is more fruitful to consider ethical dilemmas from a practical problem solving perspective as opposed to searching for absolute foundations. I think if we earnestly apply ourselves to life in the manner suggested above we can make ethical progress.


Monday, May 25, 2015

Mountains to Beach Race Report 2015 BQ

Mountains to Beach Race Report

I drove up from Marina Del Rey to Ventura Saturday afternoon, and the pre-race festivities didn't get off to a great start. Arriving in a pretty hot sun at the expo I saw two long looping lines. Stepping into one I asked if this was the line for the bibs and received an affirmative reply. Ten minutes later someone asked a better question 'is this the full marathon line' to which the response was 'no this the half-marathon line'. OK so back to the end of the now longer line. I did eventually get to the bibs yet somehow '1172' my number was not to be found between '1171' and '1173' ? I was slightly panicked as they couldn't find the person in charge, but it turns out they have back-up bibs with timing chips so I got a new lucky number '493'. Onto the line to get my shirt :).  There was also a line to check in at my hotel apparently because it still had vacancies and all the runners that hadn't planned ahead were checking in without reservations. I had reservations but it was about another 40 minutes before I could get my room key :(. At this point I wasn't going back to the expo for the carb loading dinner so I went to the hotel restaurant and loaded up on some pasta. 

After dinner I KT-taped up a couple old injury spots (ankle & hip flexor), watched part of an NBA playoff game, and tried to turn in early so I could be up at 3:30 AM to get ready and walk to the 4:15 bus. Other preparations I had made at home included my homemade race nutrition balls (modified corn starch, walnut paste, date, honey & brown rice syrup), and a music mix for the race (about 1/2 jazzy vocal swing, with some grittier stuff like the Clash, Graham Parker plus early Springtseen, the Stones and some Lucinda Williams).

Things started to look up as the I did get some sleep, the walk to the bus was dark & cool yet pleasant and the 25 minute bus ride up to Ojai went without a hitch. I sat on a stoop near the race start shivering for about 45 minutes then I saw some folks I recognized, chatted them up and moved to my pace goup at the start line for the 6 am start. We were supposed to start in waves but the pacers who had set up to close to each other causing a mass of tightly packed runners all took off together at the horn. Despite the tight packing the first mile was only a few seconds slower than planned 8:07 minutes per mile. There was a 3hr 28 minute pacer which was the time I was aiming for, but I was going to run my own race as the pacers are volunteers and don't always gauge things ideally. 

At mile 2 the 3:28 pacer started going faster then I had planned so I let him go. A running buddy (Rajesh) had planned to pace with me but followed the official pacer instead. Still I ran miles 2,3,4 and 5 slightly faster than planned yet felt comfortable and my HR was in the range I wanted. By mile 5 I was hoping my average pace to be 7:55 and it was just one second fast (7:54). Mile 5 to 6 is a very gradual up hill climb of about 90 ft. I could see the 3 :28 pacer disappearing from my view on this hill even as I ran it about 15 seconds faster than planned. I tucked in behind Pete (an experienced many time Boston qualifier from my running group). Pete had mentioned he was running despite coming off an injury so he might not quite be at his usual (3:25 range) pace. Mile 6 to 7 also has a small elevation (about 60 ft), and my HR was creeping up into the 150's as I ran it 5 seconds faster than planned so I backed off a tad on the flat mile 7 to settle my HR below 150 as planned. Still I was ahead of my planned pace and the gradual downhill was approaching.

I was still tucked in behind Pete for miles 9 & 10 which are gradual downhills, and mile 11 which is flat. I was also still running slightly ahead of my plan and now my HR was around 146 which was very good news. I was starting to get pretty confident that only an injury would keep me from hitting my goal of 3:28. I had carried water up to mile 7, and had been disciplined to take nutrition every two miles with some water. Miles 12,13, and 14 are the steepest downhills on the generally forgiving course. Pulling up next to Pete at mile 10 I asked him how he was feeling. He said OK, but his response felt a little strained to me so I thought his injury might have interrupted his training. I comfortably ran Miles 12, 13, and 14 at a good clip (about 7:37 pace) passing Pete at mile 12, and the 3:28 pacer at about the midway point (13.1). I hadn't seen Rajesh and was wondering if he was running way ahead of pace or if I somehow I had missed him in the crowd. These miles were pretty close to pure joy. The mountains are gorgeous, and my body was absorbed in the the music and the scenery. I was on pace to finsh faster than 3:27.


At the end of mile 14 a more gradual descent progresses until about mile 21. No marathon is without it's tough spots and somewhere around mile 15 I felt a few warning sign twinges. One in my left hip which for some reason had been a bit stiff during my taper, and another in my left achilles tendon. These were both of concern because I had a hip flexor snap on me a few years earlier preceded by a similar twinge, and neither that type of injury nor a torn achilles would allow continued running if they occurred. I told myself to run with good form and awareness and not to push to hard. At mile 17 I felt the achillies again a few more times, but it would be ok after that. At mile 18 I had an issue trying to swallow some water while running (wrong pipe) and taking some nutrition led to a strong heartburn like pain (not fun when running sub 8 minute miles). By mile 20 the heartburn had subsided which was a relief, but I knew that the last 10 k would be without any more fuel. I was still maintaining a good pace and feeling pretty good for mile 20 of a race.

It wasn't until about mile 22 that my HR consistently started to drift up into the 150's and it was getting warmer and the sun was out as I approached the last 4 mile loop on the beach. This was the HR profile I would have scripted so I knew I was running a smart race. The last 4 miles can be a bit mentally challenging, but I had enough in reserve and just wanted to avoid injury. At mile 24 I caught Rajesh who at this point was being paced by a friend who runs very fast marathons. I was glad to see he had been out in front, but he had gone out a bit to fast and was subsequently laboring some. I urged him on, and he made a push to stay with me but couldn't maintain it. After turning back to the finish line on the beach at mile 25 a sense of accomplishment started to creep in through the cracks in my fatigue, and it seeped through my mode of vigilant monitoring caution to avoid  injury. With a 1/2 mile to go I let caution disperse into the breeze and picked up the pace to the finish.

I crossed the line with an official time of 3:26:51 :)

It was a good day :)



Here is a postscript comment I added at my running group page on facebook



I feel like I should say more here. A big reason I was drawn to marathon training was the many parodoxes we get to wrestle with in our pursuit of progressive goals.

I liked the fact that it was in many ways a solitary pursuit in which gradual mastery
of the art of the training leads to a self awareness that is hard to find in other endeavors. We learn to explore the boundaries of our limitations, and come to realize that freedom emerges when we approach those boundaries without over-reaching because then, on the next approach, those boundaries allow a slightly greater reach.

But along the way I think we come to realize something even more valuable. That no accomplishment exists in a vacuum, there is a collective aspect to every achievement, and getting a PR or a BQ means little without being able to share it with others who understand the process. When I crossed the line I will admit a sense of accomplishment, but the first thing I did was look for other Leggers. I found Bradley who while missing his BQ had finished ahead of me, and is sure to BQ soon (almost surely in Chicago). I found Elias whose resume is too long to list, and was gracious as ever not mentioning his new 1/2 marathon PR until I had gone on for a bit about my race. I found Rajesh who had a massive PR, and then Jaclyn who also BQ'd despite a calf injury in the middle of the training cycle. I also found Wansun who seems to PR with every race, and ran faster then his BQ standard (3:15) as well.

I think what's most rewarding is not just achieving some static goal but making progress in an activity that both allows us to better understand ourselves as well as that which connects us to others.


Here is a link to my splits:
https://www.strava.com/activities/311056200

Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Harmony from Asymmetry

According to the technical parlance of modern physics an object is said to be symmetrical in relation to the degree that it can maintain invariance to transformation. In simple language symmetrical objects maintain a 'sameness' when their relation to an observer is altered. A spherical circle for example is the most symmetrical of objects as it can be rotated in any number of ways without altering it's appearance. I find it fascinating however that the symmetry of a circle pales in comparison to that of the formless Higgs field which fills up all of space with a 'sameness' that makes it invisible and all but undetectable while managing to provide the mass for all things of form.

Science writer  Amanda Gefter describes this beautifully in these qoutes:

"The Higgs is what’s known as a scalar field, the only experimentally verified specimen of its kind. That means it has only a single value at every point in space (unlike the field that describes light, which at every point has both a size and direction)....No matter how you rotate it, it always looks the same. Just like empty space. Symmetry equals invisibility."
"The Higgs has become famous for giving elementary particles their mass, but this obscures its true meaning. After all, giving particles mass is easy—slow them down below the speed of light and, voilĂ , mass. The hard part is to give particles mass without breaking the primordial symmetry in the process. The Higgs field achieves this remarkable feat by taking on a nonzero value even in its lowest energy state. Crouching in every corner of empty space sit 246 gigaelectronvolts of Higgs—only we’ll never notice, because it’s the same at every point. Only a scalar field could hide in plain sight and get away with it. But elementary particles notice. Every time a particle’s mass breaks the symmetry of the universe, the Higgs is there, posing as empty space, repairing the damage. Constantly laboring in the shadows, the Higgs keeps the universe’s original symmetry intact."

The most basic conceptual principle that is fundamental to Taoist philosophical thought can be described as 'complementary opposition' . This concept is represented by the well recognized tai chi diagram which models the interdependent relationship between yin and yang.  Yin and yang can represent any pair of interdependent complementary opposites such as dark and light, form and formlessness, or, asymmetry and symmetry.






In line with the tai chi diagram, the Ni family harmony style tai chi movement form is composed of two sections: a 58 movement yin section, and a 50 movement yang section. Like the dark and light fish represented in the diagram, the yin and yang sections of the form asymmetrically oppose each other in such a way that their integration allows for the emergence of something greater than the parts. What emerges is symbolized by the symmetrical form of the circle, and what underlies the integration of the parts is a greater symmetry that could be said to be formless.

As one of many possible examples consider the two postures 'double whip' and 'single whip'. Common to each of the postures is the underlying meaning 'exposition of the heavenly mystery'. An exposition is the setting forth of a theme. The 'double whip' posture serves this function for the yin section while it's opposing complement 'single whip' serves this function for the yang section. While each of these postures is composed of circular movements the 'double whip' is more contained, less expansive and turns 180 degrees from left to right. In contrast the 'single whip' is less contained, more expansive, and turns from right to left. Like the light dot contained within the dark fish the 'double whip' is said to represent 'yang contained within the yin'. Conversely, the 'single whip' represents the light fish which contains a darkened dot or 'yin within yang'. Together they complete the 360 degree circle of the tai chi diagram.

 With this in mind I like to contemplate these excerpts from chapter 14 of the Tao Te Ching as translated by Hua-Ching Ni.

Look at it but you cannot see it
Because it is formless, you call it invisible
Because it is soundless, you call it inaudible
Grasp it, but it is beyond your reach
Because it is subtle, you call it intangible
.
.
If you hope to meet it, it has no part you can call front
If you hope to follow it, it has no place you can call behind
Yet it can be observed
In the constant regularity of the universe


The practice of tai chi, through it's symmetry breaking ( i.e., the creation of form ), and symmetry making (i.e., the transcendence of form), can serve as a method for complementing a modern scientific cognitive understanding of these concepts with an experiential exploration and understanding of these concepts .

 Zhaungzi offers advice on how one might navigate the asymmetries that are continually unfolding as potential paths we might walk.



‘A dao is created as we walk it;’  &
‘Therefore, the Sage brings all into harmony through assertion and denial but rests it upon the balance of heaven: this is called “Walking a Double Path.’
 This is accomplished by
 ‘Allowing Both Alternatives to Proceed’ &
‘remaining at rest at the center of the spontaneous Potter’s Wheel of Nature’  -  & finally
‘Thus the Sage sees by the glimmer of chaos and doubt. He does not affirm of anything: “this is it”; his affirmation is lodged in ordinary practice. This is to view things in the light.
Compare this again with another paragraph from Gefter:

"In spite of the way quantum fluctuations are typically described, what sits “out there” in the world is not some preexisting reality wiggling around. Experiment has consistently proven that what sits “out there” isn’t sitting at all, but waiting. Unborn. Quantum fluctuations are not existential descriptions but conditional ones—they are not a reflection of what is, but of what could be, should an observer choose to make a particular measurement. It’s as if the observer’s ability to measure determines what exists. Ontology recapitulates epistemology. The uncertainty of nature is an uncertainty of observation. "
"Could it be that something is just what nothing looks like from the inside? If so, our discomfort with nothingness may have been hinting at something profound: It is our human nature that recoils at the notion of nothing, and yet it may also be our limited, human perspective that ultimately solves the paradox. "